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It's been a while, again!

So you don't want the hug?

I think the joy is in the little things that we do for each other.

Say it even if you think she's not listening. She is! "Okay, love youuuuuuu!"

Will we be close friends?

I'm sorry for leaving!

What do you think is beautiful on this earth? I think your smile is. It's watching your smile that makes all the difference.

Okay anyway, I'm moving from this livejournal. To greener pastures? I cannot imagine.

Even if I'm not here anymore, just imagine.

I could never have imagined.

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 It's watching you smile that  makes all the difference.

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(a stolen title) 

Ryan says: Thank you for loving me.

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The fever went down so I went back to my primary school today and like it or not I found that  I wasn't really close to them anymore and I found myself thinking of other company at times- the way I act around the friends I spent my primary school years with is like the way I act with half-strangers that I don't really need to get to know, the kind that we kind of fell through with because of time and it becomes awkward to talk because there's nothing to talk about. Haha I realised that only when the teachers asked hey is there any juicy gossip and anything new about you guys and there was this silence silence except Peter saying that Ryan has a fetish for short hair

Haha yeah, I like to see the neck on girls, right-

Whatever man! But then yeah, it was then I realised there isn't anything much to say anymore. And I'm kind of different also. We're all kinda different. But I love them still although not everyone came back AHEM and I hope that maybe JC will bring us back together? Sorry AC but I still love you guys too (:


So I had this retarded dream where the bus I was on with softball people sank into the sea and it became a submarine (little yellow submarine!) and then like everyone was suddenly in these scuba suits and it was rather un-nerving and we were catching little jellyfish creatures to put into buckets

It scares me to think that there actually might have been squirmy things crawling on my hands in my sleep and I was clutching them



tightly tightly tightly as if we're all hanging on for dear life
as if umbrellas could shield us from the downpour
but hang on baby don't
hang up I haven't told you I miss you so much

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Haha shit I pulled an all nighter AGAIN after the last one but this time it was because I couldn't sleep all and I woke up feeling like



I'm on fire. So, at home again -.-



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I've abandoned actually numbering my posts. It's very troublesome to keep track of so never mind (: I didn't intend to come here today, but a fever and a protective mummy's keeping me inside the house; it's been a while since I actually posted. I guess I owe a little something since it's the start of a new year- and I actually spent the new year away from here... SLEEPING. ):

Every new beginning always brings change; and sometimes I mightn't really like what's happening. In fact, it might have been something that threw my life into total upheaval. it's difficult, especially to face the truth, especially when your feelings are real, but a prayer for guidance always works the correct way... well. I think so. I trust so (: The feelings are real. What's willed will work itself out in its own way, and all we can do is believe. Okay? Faith (: Have faith in what you can do, in what I can do, in what we can do, and in what God can do.

Results come out in less than a week, (haha good luck everyone and don't bother worrying anymore ok just be excited!) and school technically starts in a week! Though I don't see why we have to go for open house, because for most of us... isn't it already set in stone what we're gonna do in JC? The idea of going to JC strikes some feeling into me- although people say I've mostly had my route planned out for myself since P4 I really don't know because I don't know what I want to do after that, like there's a big nothing. I guess with time though I'll decide that for myself. I know people who've already decided to go overseas like Yale, Harvard, UBC and I go oh if I get scholarship overseas if not then in NUS la!

Okay anyway so basically I've been spending the last few days not posting in tandem, I'm like hanging off a cliff not going down or not going up (it seems like down anyway ><) Too many things are in question and at the same time emotions are very mixed so much so that I'm no longer sure of myself- ask me something serious and I'll tell you I don't know.

I actually spent New Year's overseas again... In Chiangmai. I guess it was a good trip, better than last year, because we got to learn a lot more, even though more messed up things happened to us and there was no shopping trip like last year ): I'm really inspired and I hope I can be a better player... even though I'm going through this bad period right now and I was ill the whole time I was there feeling like puking- the fever only came yesterday night ><

I've not been the best friend and I know I've done a few wrong things in the course of this year. (I know I still got a few people cheated) I'm sorry, and if you read this I just want to thank all of YOU for caring whether I met you seven years ago, four years ago, a few months ago, or just a week back. Friendship is always and you're the most important people because we've spent/ will spend the years growing up together (:

I know there's a lot to do, and a lot to get through, especially now.





trailing sparks






Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same
 

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And so I am sure I'll never look back and now, looking forward (:

I have not much to give you,
I have done wrong to you,
I have fallen away from you,
but still you take me with your love.







Until the world won't turn
'Til the planets burn
Until the sun dies I'll be there
Until the heavens come
'Til this life is done
Until the world dies I'll be there


You are beautiful (:

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 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

I pray for guidance.

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 You're not holding me back when you're the one I want
The perfect words never crossed my mind, cause there was nothing in there but you
The flavor of your lips is enough to keep me pressing
Enough to keep me here
When I'm with you I'm not looking back
Can I?
You know that I love you go on
And after all, you're my wonderwall (:
I feel a little better already ♥ 
You matter, whether it's in the morning, afternoon or night (:
Because you are sweet like a cupcake, and I love you, Jasey.
Really? Yeah ♥
Being sixteen is different, because I have you (:
Cherish the time we still have, twice, thrice and a hundredfold times again.
However... you reminded me that I have you (: And you have me too~
Gosh, I love your smile.
I just want to say I love little surprises too (:
It's like when I sit beside you, I smile, you smile, I watch you, and everything else melts away
... there is a difference between happiness, and happiness (:

By chance, but now it's by us (:
So this is something I'm going to hold true and never ever forget.
So tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love? All the time, all the time.
V for very ♥
Five years later. Everything is five years later!
Yours, truly (:
Today was made infinitely better, thank you (: (: I like eggmayo, and kinder bueno too! But you know of all the things I like and love you are at the tippity-top (
: Alright, let's hope then (:
"Better?" "Yup. Let's stay like this for a while longer."

"I will draw on you!" -cringes- "It's ticklish! And no obscenities!" -draws- "Read it?" -reads- "You're sweet (:"

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
But anyway. We think you're the best girl in the world. So believe us (:




And for all the things in the world, I would not give you up.
Like this title, like this life, you are special, like no other.
I love you.

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